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Originally Posted by dADDio
Wow....where to begin. I am simply hoping to share similar experiences with other professionals who have found themselves with ADD. People who have spent decades as a management professional, but strangely with a employment lifespan of 2-3 years. Mutual separations with no reason given..... never really understanding why you failed and blamed everyone else....
Then one day, when your older and you're closing in on another 'mutual separation' you finally go and take 'the test'. AFter scoring off the chart, you go the human pharmacy who has you on adderall, ativan and freaking Bipolar meds???? who knew.
The meds make me feel better and help me see the complete jerk I have been to people. What they don't do, is give me back my power. I don't feel capable, pills or no pills to perform any type of management role. I feel so lost in myself......time is running out and I need to find where I fit or how to fix this.
Anyone relate?
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Yeah, I get you. I was an electronics teacher when I was first diagnosed with PTSD and ADHD. I loaded up on the meds in the beginning but now I only take three, and I don't take anything for the ADHD.
I've had about 5 of those 'mutual separations' in my working lifetime. I'm 52 now and I'm not currently working but am definitely ready to get back on the horse, except this time I'm going back to my first love, electronics technician - specialize in biomedical machines but can do other stuff, too. I've also decided this time I'm going to have something to fall back on, so I am in the process of figuring out the bureaucratic knots that need untying to become an NRA instructor teaching other women self-defense.
Looking back, not all of my job losses were my fault or because I had ADHD. I was an excellent technician in my twenties and a great teacher in my 40's - I spent most of my 30's raising my kids and really enjoyed that, too. I won awards when I was a technician and teacher so obviously I was doing some things right. I think because both of those jobs were things that I absolutely loved doing and there were not a lot of politics I had to deal with.
In each case where I lost a job, it always seemed to me in hindsight that I was too oblivious to what was going on around me. People would get mad at me for reasons I didn't understand and frankly, didn't care. I saw it as their problem, not mine. All I cared about was doing the job right and I have very high and strict standards about doing my job, so again, hindsight, some people found me to be threatening even though any trouble they may have gotten into didn't have anything to do with me that I could tell.
Anyway, that's my story and I'm stickin to it! I hope it helps.
WW