Be kind to yourself and do what you need to be healthy. If going IP will help you to function better and work toward stability-go for it. Even having one reason to live, such as for PC...is good. It means you have hope inside. You know you will get through this and we are here for you. Many of us have gone through this!

I have pushed people away both by choice and because of how I acted when unstable.

Take some time to yourself and consider what you need to do to be healthy. Your mental health is just as important as physical. I consider them the same.