I'm back. I've been gone a couple months taking care of my parents. I'm still helping them, but just have a little more time to myself now.
Anyway, my therapist left for a two week vacation yesterday. She comes back September 7. I talked to her on the phone on Friday night and fell apart. I really miss her. I've wanted to cut and the feelings got pretty intense this afternoon. I don't want to disappoint her or ruin my record (one weekend in the past 18 months I've cut). I just don't know how I'm going to make it. My therapist has someone covering for her, but I don't know her and really don't want to have to explain everything to her.
Thanks for listening. I just needed to share.