Ever since junior year of highschool I started to live in my head. I started to talk to myself in my head to figure out how I can solve a situation. Now I am a freshman in college and I realized I have anxiety and social anxiety (I don't think it's intense) but I tend to live in my head most of my day. I think things in my head. I replay a situation if I really liked the outcome of that. I play a situation that would happen if I encountered a guy I haven't met yet but talked to for a year but we stopped talking. I replay an embarrassing moment from 6th grade and I start to cringe but talk to myself in my head and out loud It's okay!! When I walk around campus and I am feeling not well I talk to myself in my head when I see someone and talk **** about them and put them down in my head. I am in my head way too much.


Going a little off topic but this has to do with smoking pot. I was never an avid smoker. after awhile I realized I hated it because I got super super paranoid and would think that everyone is finding out the truth about my personality and that my actual personality is shy but they see that I am putting on an act to make myself seem outgoing. This is an example of me being in my head for a long time.

I also worry way too much and so when I worry I talk to myself in my head. It's as if I am speaking into a journal in my brain. Like "Sigh. I'm feeling sad again. I hope I don't have this sadness forever." Or "I'm stuck like this forever. I wanna die. I wanna die." Or like "I'm ugly. Why am I so ugly no wonder I don't have a boyfriend." Why don't I have a boyfriend. Is it because of my personality? But I'm not that shy as I used to be anymore. I am still scared of guys. Why am I scared of guys. Let's look back into the 18 years of my life and try to figure out the start to my fear.
Basically I am analytical every single second and I get tired. Of it. Tired. I hate my thoughts sometimes. I get exhausted from my thoughts. Please help!!!