He is frustrated with me and I think I triggered something in him...and it has led him to confront me... At this juncture it is intentional but I have told him that I do not want him in my face. I know what he is trying to do. I am trying to understand and hope to develop an alliance in this difficult journey. I am hurt as I am sensitive... yet obstinant.

Now to rebuild and work on alligning but I am not sure how. He will need to help me. This is also reminiscent of my relationship with my father... which he acknowledges. (That would be the negative...)

He acknowledges seeing glimmers of hope within me and has said this each of the last two visits. Sex is on the docket ...my desires ...though I have only voiced wanting a relationship like I envision he has with his wife. It is now off the docket...except that my alliance with him on an unconscious basis is to assist with this area as well as many that would be interrelated.

Yes many layers.... and it is confusing.

There is indeed fear..and frustration....

Will need to give this more thought over time. His intentions and frustrations are honorable but his methods need some fine tuning.. ...or maybe not. Sigh. So could be negative bad or negative functional.