Hi Purple, that's quite a tale. So much of what you relate sounds similar to experiences I've had, and I am definitely bipolar. The unhealthy relationships, the drug use, irresponsible spending, jealousy, and generally impetuous behavior are all hallmarks of manic episodes. And in the early stages of bipolar the mania tends to be stronger and longer-lasting than the depressive episodes. Untreated, that reverses over time-- and that really sucks.
The rage and avoidance of responsibility could be signs of a mixed state. But whatever you call it, I'm glad you're seeking help Purple. Here's a post that will give you some food for thought: http://forums.psychcentral.com/bipol...-recovery.html.
I wish you all the best as you continue with your healing journey.
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Dx Bipolar II 2014 -- currently in remission
Stay calm, be kind, have hope, love lots, and be well.
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