hey there. yeah, i think you might well be doing the right thing. at least, you are doing what im doing lol. fact is that meds arent going do do a heck of a lot except possibly to mute things by way of sedating you. add to that the fact that we simply dont know what the long term effects of medication on the brain is and i think it is a fairly sensible thing to be doing in all honesty.

that being said... i do have a small amount of something sedating (chlorpromazine or seroquel or valium) to take when i have my... urm... episodes. for when things get really very intense. to help me sleep so i dont si or whatever. i do that maybe once a month or once every couple months if i really need to.

what do they want you to take? if they think you should be on meds is it just for the sake of your being on meds or do they have a particular med in mind that they think you might find some benefit from?

if meds really helped then i guess there is no problem with your taking them for the rest of your life. trouble is the meds are unlikely to really help and if you add to that picture the side effects and uncertaintly of long term negative effects... then i think you have made a pretty good decision truth be told.