So I go through these phases where I literally cannot stand my husband. Every little thing he does I snap. Yesterday I made him leave. Right now I'm the only source of income for our family. I work a lot and very late at night. He is always asking for money and I do give it to him cause he does stay at home with our kids and get them off to school in the mornings cause I work so late and suffer from insomnia so my sleep is so messed up but other than he doesn't do much so I feel like I'm paying a babysitter. He has severe ptsd from serving in iraq and afghanistan but its like he doesn't do anything to fix. There is no romance or anything in our marriage and I beg him to spend time with me / atleast talk me but nothing. This makes me despise him. Just looking at him makes my anger and anxiety rise but yet I don't want him to leave me??? What's wrong with me? Today is another one of those days!!!