Hi

He mislead you into thinking he had feelings for you, he slept with you, actually told you he has feelings for you and used his ex as an excuse, so how else could you have taken him? You wasn't wrong for the reason you believe you're wrong, you are wrong because he lied and manipulated you.

Please don't blame yourself, this was no way your fault. And please don't let this question your progress. The fact that he has hurt you doesn't erase the fact you felt real progress. That still stands.

Right now, you are caving in on yourself and you need to trust the facts if you can't trust your feelings right now. Fact 1 - he slept with you. Fact 2 - he expressed he had feelings for you. Fact 3 - he told you he isn't with you cause of his previous relationship which was still hurting him. HE made you believe there was something there. You are not crazy.

OK so lets say, those facts were not real, lets say you had imagined all this...it still doesn't mean you have other areas in your life that are not real, try not question your whole reality because of 1 idiot or 1 event.

Also, be aware of the fact that rejection is EXTREMELY hurtful and triggering for us. It plays with our darkest fears...please try not question your whole reality based on this, what you really need (IMO) is to be gentle with yourself and see it for what it really is.

Please take care