I'm now more concentrating on physical pain, I don't know, somehow that distracts from everything else, and I am learning to be kinder to myself maybe? I'm thinking of things to make myself feel better, and I'm realizing life is short.
Ex's dad passed away. I feel strange that I can't be there for him. He didn't want my sympathy.. he has his very special gf to offer that, and it feels strange. 20 yrs with the man, I still care about him even though I put up with a lot of abuse.
My doc just stared at me when I said my heart flip flops, he said "it skips a beat".. got up and left, didn't say when to come back or anything.
I bought myself roses on sale, they'll be dead in less than a week but I treated myself.
I'm in pain and my son is yelling at me to make supper. He has gotten very rude and I know I need to get a handle on him.

Take care all, hugs all.