hi reznov
you don't say what bad is going to come from it. how can it be worse that all the pain and difficulty you are having in your life because you are keeping this secret. your friendship has made it thru two breakups before. why would it not make it through you discussing your feelings for her? just because you discuss your feelings, doesn't mean you have to expect her to reciprocate. and you can make that clear to her. but you are in pain. she is your friend. surely she would want to know about this. but the reality is, you guys have tried this twice before and it hasn't worked. you have to see what it is about her that you have put her up on this pedestal that you cant see beyond her, that she is occupying your every thought. but who knows, maybe she would be willing to give it another shot? you never know until you ask.. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome