Thanks for the tips everyone. Im not doing anything in life currently due to med changes and a psychotic break (mania) at my university. I dont want to explain this stuff to girls when i first meet them (my psychiatrist told me that i should only explain it when things become necessary, such as i have a psychotic break and they are scared).

I guess i just needed people to sit here and tell me things ive heard before and told myself again. Im in a bad spot in life right now, this is temporary and things will improve. Thanks guys.