I think I put on a mask and I am not proud of it but I feel like I'm conforming to society and how positive everyone else seems to be. The thing about showing that you're feeling sad, depressive, anxious whenever it comes up is that people don't like being around someone who shows sadness often and stuff like that so that is why people don't show it around others. Especially to those they want to make happy. The thing is for me, I feel hopeless. I also feel down a lot and worry constantly and get stuck in fear. Me being positive isn't an act but more of me WANTING to get better. To stop Feeling the sadness I do because it gets unbearable to have within. That's why I try to be positive because if I am not being hopeful, I would probably not be in a good place at this very moment. I don't know your situation, I hope I am not harming you in any way. I was just trying to help you and tell you how I personally feel in my life.