I came out to my mother yesterday via a note. I gave it to her when she dropped me off at school, which I felt like was a safer alternative than giving it to her at home. At the end of the day when I got home, we talked. She asked me why I felt that way, and I told her I had felt that way since I was young. She retorts with the statement that "we aren't suppose to act on feelings," and that "God will send you to, for it says it in the Bible." She quoted biblical verses to me saying that all homosexuals, adulterers, and other sinners will burn in hell unless they pray for forgiveness and change to pure heart. She asked me if I wanted to have an exorcism, told me that she'd remove me from public school and put me into the Christian achool, she'd remove me from school in general and lock me in my room, she'd seperate me from my brothers because she wouldn't want them exposed to me, and a lot more things. At the end of the discussion, I told her that I would just pray it away and attmspt to change (which I have done over the past few years, but nothing has changed, so obviously I'm this way for a reason). My mom claimed that I wasn't born this way and that I chose to be like this because it's a "cop out". I'm depressed, and I don't know what to do anymore.
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