I thought I'd change the world and have a satisfying career in some independent thinker/creator/gadfly role. I hoped I'd have a partner I'm content with, and we'd have a good chunk of land.

Finally I'm disillusioned of that apparent folly, though I can't quite let it go. The partner is good but complicated. I'll have land again, and it should be more because now I'm part of "us." I am definitely not content.