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i wonder if I am the only one that makes dumb choices knowing I am doing. Was feeling okay today, somewhat numb but better then I am now. Was looking through site here and seen the borderline personality test. Thought about it and decided to take it. I knew it was dumb, but did it any how. Now feel like piece of ----. Depressed and mind going all over. I knew what it was going to say, but damn. Is it not bad enough to have bp. Do I really need both? Been kind of suppressing the notion of BPD since pdoc dx with a few years back. Now I am wondering what I did to deserve this crap. I try to be good person, try help others, never did anything to hurt others, it just does not seem fair. I know the genetic, bio, blah, blah, blah crap. Does not help me accept. I been going through mood changes at least five or more times a day. How can this be? Sorry rattling. So depressed and my fault, I know it!
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