I thought maybe I did have BPD. I looked up many disorders to see which one I fit with because I KNOW that what I do isn't normal. People don't usually choose what attitude they're going to have before doing something. I do this every single day. Being so aware of how I am acting and just living in my head a lot. I think this stems from having social anxiety? I am not diagnosed but my therapist thinks I might have it. Me being afraid of people makes me anxious about the way I act and how I want to impress and please them. How does one get diagnosed with BDP? Is it by talking to a therapist and asking her/him?