I'm dissociate at times, like when I'm doing things I have that problem like feeling I'm doing something I'm not fully, consciously aware of. Not as much like looking at my face or body, but more like doing things and activities.

As for having paranoia, I have that all the time. I'm at the extreme of being hostile and defensive when a person just walks by my room or is around me when I'm alone or looks at me. If I'm looked at, I feel like they're talking about me in their head or if they look at me and talk to someone, I get nervous or angered that I'm what they're talking about. I always feel like people are talking mean things about me or putting out rumors of me and I get paranoid people are just nice to me because I'm, to what they think, 'special'. I feel everyone thinks I'm mentally challenged or stupid.

Really I'm paranoid by just about anything. It's hard to be social or get out and have friends for most of those reasons. I hate having all eyes on me, it's uncomfortable. I hate having to be so extreme to think just a gesture or a slightest tone of voice causes paranoia and belief over so many emotions and the cause of my quick mood swings.