@lucami - I can reach out online but I need people that are near me. I'd like to have people who are understanding to my circumstances and maybe share in similar interests. Thx about the cooking =)

@Cosmic
I am on therapist #8 LOL. For 5 yrs I been looking for that one who will be able to help me. I always have hope in the beginning that they might be able to help after a few months of stagnation its time to start the search all over again I feel like its a waste of $ and as well as time that leaves me worse off then when I reached out to any of them. As for the group therapy anything in my area is either for personality disorder and or bi-polar - so going to those kind of groups wouldn't be helpful. I wish they had groups for just anxiety !! I went to this one group called Recovery International - I left because not my anxiety but the way they were terming people with anxiety - a nervous condition - the nervous person - this program must have been written in the 1950s due to the dialogue - wasnt my cup of tea. So I don't know...