Alright so I've decided to make a list every night of the things that I would like to accomplish for the day. I've been doing this for about a week now and the system is rather simple. Basically I rank things in numerical order by importance and after I accomplish them I put a V next to the item like a check. If at the end of the day I did some of it or something similar I'll put a / for half credit and if I didn't do it I'd put a - next to it. The problem I'm having with such lists is that the things on it are so rudimentary that I really should be doing them anyway and accomplishing these feels like winning a participation award at the annual participation championship, namely not accomplishments.
For example today's list went as follows:
1. Eat breakfast -
I woke up at 11:00 so I by default failed this one.
2. Do some silk road work V
I have a midterm writing assignment due in a week and did the bare minimum of what I asked myself to do today, namely read one of the chapters.
3. Do some late work -
I'm a lazy **** so I didn't do latework today.
4. Write some fanfiction /
Yes I know I'm a loser a nerd and that I am participating in activity that is 90% women but screw you I have to practice the writen word somewhere and I'm too stupid to think of my own ideas. Plus I have 22 silent onlookers passively kind of maybe caring if I ever finish so that is a mild motivator. Anyway I proofread a paragraph and wrote a paragraph so by technicality I did get partial credit even though I failed to finish a chapter or do anything of substance.
5. Get a haircut V
My hair was too long, so I got a haircut. Description over.
6. Do something physical /
I rode my bike tothe library, then to the barber, then back to my residence. Technically that's thirty minutes of biking but really a cop out.
7. Don't eat as much garbage /
I've been eating a lot of bad stuff recently so I'm trying to slow down. Today I had nothing for breakfast or lunch, a single plate of food half composed of cantaloupe and grapes for dinner, and a cupcake for desert. Also a slice of pizza as a midnight snack because I'm weak willed and stupid. Still that's an improvement so partial success.
So the problem I'm having is that I scored a 50% on a list of things I should've gotten a 100% on and them some, making today another failure to add to the mound. How can you lose even when your standards are set so low that you could limbo under them while wearing stilts and just bounce back like its nothing? I'm setting such pathetic goals and still failing to reach them, what can I do to stop being such an incompotent twit? Even if I do reach them how can I be satisfied at accomplishing the bare minimum of what I was supposed to as a functioning person?