It's not always easy to remain present. That's why some of us actually have to be taught how
Self-doubt? Cut that shyt out, your life is going according to plan, and you're lucky enough that this plan is inline with yours. Shyt, you actually managed to follow a damn plan!
I'm still winging it, mapless and all as my plans never pan out
Try to stay in the here and now, even if it's not really enjoyable, it beats worrying about wars and coming winters.
Ps. Curling up on the couch isn't always a bad thing. I'm curled up right now. Not in tears, but rather actively avoiding a stressful situation, I can deal with it tomorrow, way too exhausted to tempt a meltdown...
You're doing a great job Venus, I assure you.