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Old Oct 19, 2014, 11:31 AM
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Originally Posted by sui generis View Post
Interesting experience and also you write beautifully. I also often laugh when I want to cry etc... After my second suicide attempt I lay in bed and I just started laughing. I couldn't stop for ages, I wasn't even sure why I was laughing. Maybe I was laughing at the absurdity of it all.

Anyway, how are you feeling now? Are you seeing a T at the moment? I'm quite worried for you, sounds like you're in a bad space
I feel fine when I manage to distract myself from thinking about the things which depress me. The problem is that this is nearly impossible as the primary trigger I have is being kept up at night by other people in the house. It's a complicated psychological issue that becomes too much to cope with, especially when the lack of sleep begins to really wear me down.

I consider seeing a therapist from time to time, even have several possible canidates I believe might be helpful, but I don't see what a therapist could possibly do other than help me figure out if I've developed PTSD due to the chronic stress disrupting my sleep. Even with that confirmation the treatment to remedy it would be the same as I need now: a quiet place to sleep.

The whole situation really is quite absurd. I suppose I laugh because the other option is to become aggressive, destructive, violent - to lash out at the object perceived to cause this threat to my personal welfare. Even if I told the people I live with these things they would respond like they have in the past, dismissive as if I exaggerate my experience and cannot possibly possess the knowledge required to accurately discern what would be an effective treatment.
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