I'm so absolutely full of rage and exasperation. My sister constantly goes behind my parents backs and smokes pot and has a 21 year old boyfriend. Her name is L. L's best friend is C. C hates me. My sister and her best friend are both against me. My sister constantly takes C's side. I'm so worried for my sister and the choices she's making. I know they're wrong. and it's so upsetting to see her walk down the wrong path and push me away for some girl.. we aren't even just sisters. We are twins who have been so close since birth. Now I have been replaced. L thinks I'm jealous of her friends, her boyfriend, and her 'awesome life.'

I told my therapist about my sister. Put I didn't tell her that L's boyfriend is 21. A 20 year old pushed me into having sex with him last year. That's why I'm in therapy! Then L goes and gets a 21 year old.

Mom and Dad know what happened with me and the older guy. They know how bad it destroyed me. They were so disappointed but they care so much and just wanted me to be safe. I love them so much for caring.

But L doesn't care. She continues going behind their backs with drugs and men. It kills me inside. She's constantly lying to them. Replacing me. And the best part is my parents think that IM pushing HER away! They think I'm the bad kid! It kills me...

She's the liar.
She's doing all the bad things.
I'm the one keeping her lies and secrets for her.
And I'm the one who's constantly being yelled at..
"Stop being mean to L, she loves you!"
...

It's killing me.

This morning she's wearing my sleep pants. She's on her period. It irritated me because A. That's gross. B. They're mine. C. She constantly screws me over internally. Now she's doing it outwardly. Something physical.

I went ballistic. I tried pulling them off her. I was shaking and couldn't stop screaming. She was kicking and kicking me. It hurts so bad to walk... I already have walking problems. Now it's even worse. She ripped a giant patch of my hair out. When someone rips my hair out.. I can't stand it. It's the worst thing anyone could possibly do to me. I have very thin, weak, fragile hair. It falls out all the time. I already get made fun of for how thin it is and it's my biggest insecurity. All I want is thick hair.... So when she pulled it out it just killed me even more. I was sweating, shaking, sobbing, and screaming until I lost my voice.

I'm dying inside as I hold the weight of her secrets. Everyone is against me while she is out doing so many bad things... I sit alone in my room scoring A+'s In school.. But I'm painted as the bad kid...