Hi ombretwilight, it is really good that you were able to start to talk to your school counsellor. But you know it's got to be tough for you anyway to have just terminated, after you've probably been able to share more with them than a lot of other people.
And that doesn't even need to discredit how far you've come............because you have come a long way haven't you, it's maybe more so that you need to hold onto that despite the fact that the counselor isn't there right now, and about recognising that that progress is still there/right there inside you.
And the trigger.........how you're feeling now............that doesn't need to mean that you're right back to the place you were at before.........a visit maybe, but you have got all of that progress, all of that strength you built up to help you move back away from there.
And if you need more help.........then nothing at all wrong with reaching out for that, you know, just see it as using it to continue your progress...........whether that's through the school, a doctor (or even just us for now!!)
And the other people in your school facing issues.........well maybe use that to help you feel less alone, maybe share some of what you're going through with some of them if it isn't going to be a trigger..........but either way, you know you're not alone on here. We're here for you.

Alison