I am so tired, physically and mentally tired. The medications made me tired, the post cancer treatment made me more tired, fatigue, joints pain, and my mind ... well my mind is not fine. If it is true that all the mental illness I have are from a Chemical imbalance, then why is taking more than 3 decades to find the right medications and dose to help me?

I know, is not all about the medication, I need therapy too, but time pass and here am writing to you all about how much I want to be a normal person. I think am not going not be normal, ever, not even when I think that am stable am normal. I can live with that but I can't stand this emptiness, the sad and dark thoughts, the pain, the irony of this lonely ...