Thanks Sophiesmom, it makes a lot of sense and thats what i try to do too.

sometimes though i almost wish the lows would last long enough for me to end it all because i think the peace of nothingness would be better than these continuous highs and lows.

highs happen too rarely, lows happen too often. and highs are never high enugh as lows are never low enough.

it just feels like a trap. living. is a trap. you never win, and in the end you ARE going to die anyway. seems like a joke. it makes no sense really.

we should enjoy the journey... but what if the journey is a nightmare?