thankfully, I am stable now, but I know exactly what you are talking about. I hated that about my life being a rapid cycler. I didn't feel like I could get anywhere in life because I never knew where I was going to be. after I finally graduated college I had to take my licensing exam. I paid for it, went to set it all up but then went into a mania with psychosis. so I canceled it. everytime I went to reschedule it, I felt another cylcle coming on and it was like, im not going to do well if I am sick. finally after nine months I just scheduled it knowing I was never going to be ok and I just had to take the test come what may.

but stability is possible. I have been stable for years now. a hypo now and then, once twice a year, nothing unmanageable. one major mania when pdoc put me on Zoloft. I just kept pushing my pdocs into changing the meds until we found the right ones. I refused to settle for just ok. I wanted those cycles gone.