Hope that by the time you read this you are feeling a bit better. I have been dealing with these suicidal feelings here lately, myself. It is scary, and takes everything out of you. And to feel so alone! It is horrible. I just hope you know that there is a lot of good support here on PC for you. It may not always feel like it, but we are here.

Keep putting one foot in front of the other. Taking one more breath. A better day WILL come.