I'm too scared to do that again. It's too much a risk, I've already told her. I almost died from them, before it's over and done on the meds. I've used to be on them for many many years before didn't help.

It is after puberty it was started from after being prematurely sexually active at 4 years old. I was raped, but it was very bad like I couldn't stop masturbating in class. It was like a bad itch, I didn't make it obvious I'd use my legs at the time. It was very difficult being the only kid growing up very very horny and my body was stuck to it like glue since. Now the last time I had a girl over, I had my body going crazy when we were going to have sex, but I respectfully listened to her request of not having intercourse, but the end result was I was in so much pain from the back up of me not getting off. It felt like I got my nuts squeezed to death and they were almost changing color, they were very bright red to closer to blue, it never gotten that bad before. I almost threw up on her because of it, the pain was unbearable.
I seriously might considered getting neutered at 20.
I don't plan on having children ever, my ex killed that idea altogether 2 years ago with my daughter being aborted and her abuse of it, so why do I need them?