I'm functioning really well today -- have been on constant "go" shopping, doing chores, cooking, etc. But I'm beating myself up. Doing some self-employment activity that I *know* I am good at. But I'm too hard on myself. I'm worried I will let them down or not be good enough. It's making me feel down. Trying to talk myself out of it. Feeling down.

Venturing into the unknown as I put in an application for a new, higher paying, more responsibility job. We'll see if I even get called for an interview. I'm nervous and scared, but I want to try to stretch myself because I think that I can do it. I just have to make sure my nerves don't get in the way and make me miserable in the meantime.

Gawd it feels good to get it out there. Thanks for listening.