Thanks Kali,

I had a stressful childhood, but I don't believe I suffered abuse. So I
Having trouble grasping the dissociation. I don't think it is DID, although I do think it's a little more than compartmentalization in times of great stress. I definitely depersonalize and derealize and have for a long time.

I did live in a home with a cycling psychotic mother. But I was 13 by then. The only other thing that bothers me. Is prior to my first gyn exam my mom stressfully told me that I was torn from an injury falling on a bar. Thinking that I hadn't healed. But never took me to be seen. Because she thought it would be too traumatic. It's all bizarre. I have no memory of the injury, and that is the only time we've spoken about it.

Thanks,
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