I feel fine when I manage to distract myself from thinking about the things which depress me. The problem is that this is nearly impossible as the primary trigger I have is being kept up at night by other people in the house. It's a complicated psychological issue that becomes too much to cope with, especially when the lack of sleep begins to really wear me down.

I consider seeing a therapist from time to time, even have several possible canidates I believe might be helpful, but I don't see what a therapist could possibly do other than help me figure out if I've developed PTSD due to the chronic stress disrupting my sleep. Even with that confirmation the treatment to remedy it would be the same as I need now: a quiet place to sleep.

The whole situation really is quite absurd. I suppose I laugh because the other option is to become aggressive, destructive, violent - to lash out at the object perceived to cause this threat to my personal welfare. Even if I told the people I live with these things they would respond like they have in the past, dismissive as if I exaggerate my experience and cannot possibly possess the knowledge required to accurately discern what would be an effective treatment.