OK I did it. Ive just got back from the doctors and I was totally honest and said everything I wanted to say.

I was sweating and shaking and I told her I felt stupid saying it all out loud, but she was so lovely and really understanding. She wants to change me off the citalopram onto fluoxetine but is letting me get through the school half term week so I'm not feeling worse when I'm stuck at home.

I'm feeling a bit better now I've actually spoken to someone and I've said how I actually feel rather than just putting on the usual front of I'm ok! I'm hoping that things might start working out a bit better although I know it will take some time. But I've taken a small step forward I think.