I don't know if this was a situation worthy of discussion. I don't even know how to define it in my own head.

On my 18th birthday I was extremely drunk in a club and was making out with a much older guy. He wasn't treating me very well but I had lost control. He fingered me really roughly but I didn't know how to stop it and was barely even present in the moment. It hurt a lot and I bled lots too. I got away from him (there were people around) and I was crying and went to the bathroom where my friends tried to figure out what had happened. A woman in the bathroom tried to help and asked if she should call the police. I said no. I have never thought of this as assault but it's always bothered me, I feel guilty but feel like I never said no. I feel like I half wanted it to happen.

Should I bring it up with my therapist? I don't know how to phrase it. I don't even know what happened. Only last session I disclosed my binge drinking and reckless behaviour but I didn't tell her about that time. I don't want to give it more attention than it deserves. It could just be a silly intoxicated teenage encounter.