Hst[QUOTE=ChipperMonkey;4056748]Your wife is not keeping up her end of the bargain. No, it isn't her fault that she has a mental illness, but it IS her responsibility to heal. Right now she's just taking a bunch of pills. Well, that does just about nothing...

I agree. Meds seem to do very little.

There is also the list of physical ailments... chronuc headache and bowel problems, chronic fatigue, muscle and joint pain.... I dont see any active solution or actine management of thede. Just more meds.

The porn was morally wrong to me. Some of this stuff with mywife emerged in the first year of marriage. I became a closet porn user to still have some kind of sexual stimulation in my life. It was wrong. When i got caught I had to face my wrong doing. I confessed it to two people close to us and went to our preacher. When i saw the pain it caused her I was stunned, and stopped immediately. I vowed never to do it again, commited to marriage counselling, and one year later re-proposed to her with a new ring. Two years on, she tells me she can never trust me again. I destroyed her.

Like I said, sometimes I'm just so tired.

I've wondered if this was devolving into manipulation.. Thats been suggested before. It has also been suggested that I start saying no and quit trying so hard. Ive tried that... It creates some tension, but it feels good to take a break.