I am not happy in my marriage at all !
We have our up's and downs but lately it's been down and it's not going up !
My husband treats me like a child , talks to me like a child , makes me feel like a child !
We have 0 interest I like to save he likes to spend , I like the outdoors he likes being inside , I go out of my way to make him happy he goes out of the way to make me feel like crap .

I told him last night I want out of this miserable marrige , I can't take it anymore , he dose not understand or care about my mental illness . I have a bad memory so I repeat thing's and he snaps at me and then I just flip out .

I once again slept on the couch as I always do , haha .. You see in the movies the guy sleeps on the couch NOT he never has it was always me .

I am so tempted to just pack what little I have and just take off . He tells me go do it ! I know once i do I won't be able to return he told me once you leave do not ever come back !
Gee that's what my dad told me as well .

I have no job as I am on SSD , I want to move far far far away from here and if I make it to TX that would be my place of rest . I look on CL and see if I find free rent and board in TX saw some but I am scared to take the step even tho I am at my wits .
Do I just get a ride from someone going to TX or drive down there and he could call the cops on me even tho it's under my name .
I love for my kids to come with me but they won't , they like where they are and that is fine , don't want to mess up there lives .

Do I fly and be free or sit and die