(((((((((( George ))))))))))
I'm concerned about you right now. Concerned about all the meds you have stockpiled, knowing that you just took more than you need or should have taken. This, of course, is not a healthy behavior and one I think you need to consider more than you are.
It's great that you haven't needed those meds like you used to need them. Absolutely a success story there. Unfortunately, keeping them and not using them until now, and not in a healthy or prescribed way is concerning to me.
I would say this post is definitely you reaching out for someone to acknowledge you, support you, talk with you, care about you.
Please take good care of yourself. You deserve to do that!