After 2 years and 2 months, I want to reclaim what I feel is my rightful "place in society", reclaim my status as a full and equal citizen.

I want to be more than "just a mental patient". Which is all I've felt like all this time. "Just a mental patient". Not a man. Not a person. Not an equal.

I don't know if I ever really "lost it" anywhere except in the 27th circle of Hell that exists in my head. Probably not, I just "feel like" I did.

But, whether the loss was real or imaginary, I want it back.

The question is - is it mine to reclaim? Do I have the right to "take it back" for myself?

Or, must I be "given it back" or "given the right" by some outside force, a doctor, a T, the state, society, my family, God, whoever or whatever?

Can I just be "me" again? Is it too much to ask?