I think that your reaction was a way of self protecting at the time shakesphere. Twenty five years ago you did not have the life experience you have now, always keep that in mind. Often a victim of abuse of some kind just cannot see themselves as having any redeeming qualities but instead they somehow feel it is their fault and tend to "self blame".

One of the movies that said so much about this challenge was Good Will Hunting. In that movie Will was more than willing to tear down the therapists he was encountering. He even tried to do that with Robin Williams, and it worked to where he got Robin Williams very angry. That movie really said a lot, and I think a lot of people missed the true quality of the messages that movie had in it. There is a hell of a lot more to that movie than getting a hug and then being able to go see about a girl. I have watched that movie a few times now and I always pick up something else that is so amazingly spot on. I thought that Robin Willams did an excellent job in that movie too, he definitely got the part he played and IMHO, in a very deep way too.

You need to see the entirety of where you were at the time shakesphere.

I have had to learn how to do that myself and when I look back on different things I did or ways I had reacted that I would not do now, I have had to really consider where I was
developmentally at the time too.

You were very angry back then, and you tested her, pretty much the same thing that was expressed in that movie.

OE