I had my 3rd episode at the end of August and it lasted about a month before I was put on aripiprazole which sorted it out, during this time I imagined all sorts of horrible things like I was being punished for being responsible for the death of my cousin from years ago.

Now the meds have worked and I feel like I should be relieved but I feel very antsy and like I have to keep shaking my leg and my tolerance for being bored has gotten worst especially in work, I have a very repetitive job. I don't have that much interest in things really and I don't have the concentration for reading books. I don't get energized from social interaction anymore.

I just feel very "meh" :-/