I discovered the site a couple of weeks ago also and got the same scores you are getting - only I have been in therapy for 7 months now. I have the greatest T in our entire part of the state but there is so much to get through. I write a journal every day and turn it in to him every week for us to go over. Everytime I think I have thought of everything that has caused my depression, another new one crops up. It takes time - but I know I am better than I was 3 months ago. Progress is slow but steady - but going to a T was my only hope to remain alive and he has done his job well - I would not be here if he had not stepped in and showed me I can live and actually enjoy my life (sometimes). So, hang in there. Most cities have some type of center where you can go for free help if finances are a problem - my insurance pays part of mine. It does not have to be a psychiatrist - a licensed clinical psychologist is what mine is and I would not trade him for all the money in the US mint - for what is money if you are not alive to spend it! Be good to yourself - you deserve it!

The vision of your goodness will sustain me through the cold
Take my hand now to remember when you find yourself alone
You are never alone… (John Denver)
Mars