Nope i don't belong even the vaguest sense of the word; i was bullied at school, tormented through college and even dropped out of university. All of which can't be contributed to my sheer oddness but it no doubt played a major part.

I'm ok with being unconventional. Fortunately i don't want what most consider to part and parcel of regular life. Marriage, children, the 9-5 grind; none of it interests me in the slightest. I would perhaps like a couple more friends but most of the friendships i have fizzle out after short bursts of great intensity. I often wonder if i'd be better off without them. The loneliness can be difficult but i think this is made worse really by the lack of solid routine. The devil makes work for idle hands as the saying goes. But i'll find my niche - we all do eventually.

I'm comforted by the fact that there are a lot of people like me - it's a shame we don't receive greater acceptance within society but when you live mostly on the peripheries that's what happens. I realize i can't have it both ways. I like my space, the solitude, the lack of pressure - it's only when we're surrounded by others and a way of life that's so different that those things start to become compromised.

It's not a perfect life, nor a particularly happy one. But far better to know what you don't want then be all to aware of what you'd like and your failure to get it.