Hi shakespeare, what you want to hold onto is the clear cut evidence of just how far you've actually come, you have made so much progress which is shown so well in your thread!!!!
But I can completely understand how you might have reacted to her comment negatively. Let's face it, you'd divulged something that made you so vulnerable to her, something that had effected you so deeply, so personal, so intimate. And no getting away from the deep shame, guilt, worthlessness, tainting...........that someone abused in that way can sometimes feel...........sometimes the last thing they can feel about themselves is that they're a good person. We know now that it shouldn't be necessary to carry those feelings but..........
And you revealed it to someone/one person, who you'd hoped would be in just the position to understand, to support you, to help you.
And then "just" as you'd told her, told someone for the first time, she goes throwing back something which would have sounded so patronizing, dismissive, so oblivious to how you felt at the time (?). Well anger, resentment, frustration, hurt...............I completely get.
And maybe you were expressing that through your behavior, as well as trying to let it show on the outside just how you felt, "knew it was on the inside"??
And the T.........well maybe she'd sensed how you felt at the comment (if she was experienced!!), maybe she sensed a bit of a breakdown in the relationship after that, maybe she did what she could in her experience to try to bring back the relationship, but ultimately, as a T, I would hope she would have understood and had empathy for you, for the effect of everything...........including the effecther comment had on you even though the sessions with her ended.
So NO "beating yourself up" about it, hey??!!!
The first disclosures can be the hardest ones, and carry the hardest emotions, and if not supported the way you need to be supported..........
And again.......back to now, you are a different person now, and that has so much to do with you...........the journey you've made.............you should use this memory to show you that, and to be proud of yourself in how far you've come. Respect!!!!

Alison