Well see, with my family, I try to understand that they will not accept me for anything, but when it comes to avoiding them at all cost, so I'm not badgered down, I'm still being attacked no matter what. Even if I don't want their opinion or hide everything from them, I'm going to be confronted by them and forced to listen to them and everything they tell me. All it takes is to just be alone or by myself and I'm soon, verbally attacked.

I don't get the choice to want to hear what they say, I HAVE to. They won't leave me alone for a second, without laying out their two-cents. I'm demanded to hear their lecturing and preaching, I can be doing absolutely nothing, minding my own business and I'm still getting criticized for doing that.

There is literally no getting away from them, they call me, text me, and will find me no matter what, just to provoke me and break me down. I swear it's torture and at cases, I'm always left feeling cornered and put in place just because I stepped over the line to act out in order to better myself. They will try to find out EVERYTHING about me, if they find I said one thing that sounded like I was standing up for myself, they'll attack me like a hawk about 'what I said'.

They're the type of people that give me advice saying, "you need to step up for yourself" when they'll just come after me if I do just that or "don't let people take advantage of you" when they are the very people who take advantage of me, when they have me at my worst moments. They are so hypocritical.

I'm physically used, emotionally abused, mentally distorted, and spiritually damaged.