Apologies if it reads a bit brash, this is my third attempt at writing and posting this, I kept losing it on auto log out, & I've gotten all turned around! I'll try keep it short!

I'm basically as emotionally okay as I get & I'm heading to the doctors within the next week or two depending on when I can get an appointment, because I have concerns I may be bipolar.

I am however concerned that I'm going to get a blank glare and simply get told to return if I start showing symptoms again... I really don't want to wait for the next one, basically because the last time I got bad was very nearly the end of me, I wont get into the details, but it was a close call. It makes me sad that I can not only get this bad, but also not have enough sense to get help when I need it the most.

I'm also wondering, if I turn up in my current state, emotionally okay give or take some anxiety, can they actually even do anything for me? Or do I really need to be right in the middle of a crisis?