This is a very familiar situation, not from me, but from someone else I have been in communication with. The time period was about the same, too.

The problem here, I think, is knowing when to cut your losses. It's very, very sad for all of us to lose a friend, but it does happen. And not necessarily for any reason other than people move on. They get jobs elsewhere, they get a new group of friends and they carry on with their own lives.

I fondly remember past relationships and wonder how people are now doing. Some I really do mourn the loss off. But knowing when to let go is a vital part of future happiness. It is not easy, however.

In my opinion, if she did like you romantically, you would have known. Women tend to have the knowledge that men have to usually be hit over the head and we act accordingly.

I can't speak to the rest of your issues and how they're affecting this part of your life, but I am recognizing some obsession....perhaps not with her, but with the concept of what could have been..