((((((((((((( All of dps )))))))))))))

I'm so sorry you are struggling with the things you talked about here. I cannot imagine how the fear drives you and how it makes you feel.

You wrote:

I'm sorry dps, but it was and is NOT YOUR FAULT that you were programmed to behave in specific ways and to react in specific ways when someone is too close or you are too close to revealing the secrets that only THEY wanted you to keep because THEY KNEW THEY WERE WRONG in what they did to you.

You seem to be gaining some good realities as you are moving forward in life and in your therapy. These realities can be scary and it will take time to put them into focus and act in ways that will help those fears and lies come out, be heard and be dealt with so that you can find some peace within.

It is all possible dps and you are NOT alone in this trek. Regardless of what inside is telling you that is all negative, it is not the truth my friend. The truth never needs to be covered up, the lies and deceit need to be brought forward and out of the darkness so that you may find the light. And it will happen. I have enough faith and hope for the both of us and then some.

You are my friend, my sister and I love you dearly. I am here. I have not left you, even after all we have been through and all that I have learned about you. What I know about you is that you are kind and giving and loving and that is always at the top of the list my friend.

xoxo