I won't be seeing my therapist until the 18th due to his being booked and my schedule too.

I just feel like I can't wait and need to see him now. But wouldn't this be failing myself? Part of me knows that I need to be on my own for awhile. I don't want to though.

I'm going back/forth about being angry at myself or him...he didn't do anything. He was just booked this week. But I'm thinking maybe he really wasn't booked and wanted to put space between my sessions...

I'm miserable today sorry...

This is all I want to do right now. I'm thinking it is because I haven't been able to do it in front of him. I'm always trying to make him think I'm fine...I'm not.