Hello Almeda.
I am sorry that you are struggling at this time. Journaling is a good exercise for people that have a hard time expressing themselves in sessions. Journaling also helps to put things, thoughts, and feelings in a comprehensive and more understandable realm, so you can really see what you need to be talking about with your therapist. If you do have an emergency then you do need to call the Dr and see about getting in earlier than the 18th. Take care Almeda. soidhonia