I think what brings me down everyday is feeling like I am not good enough. It's not something that is just on the surface. It is something I feel deep deep deep deep down that I wish I didn't feel. I genuinely don't feel good about myself even though I try very hard to feel good about me. I feel like I am: not funny enough, not outgoing enough, not genuine enough, not talkative enough, *****not normal enough****, not independent enough, not confident enough, not emotionally strong enough, too sensitive, too negative, dumb, not feminine enough (even though I dress like a girl), not pretty enough, not smart enough, fake, too shy, not someone who others can depend on (even though I really really really want others to feel like they can trust me), not logical enough, too much mood changing, too emotional, weak, not happy enough, not skilled enough, not active enough, my body isn't perfect enough, not motivated enough, too hopeless, obsessive, dependent on others, not easily likeable (even tho people do like me but I want to be easily likeable very very very very bad), not witty enough, not quick minded enough, submissive(I work very hard not to be this anymore but it's hard to fight it), I don't have enough knowledge, not wise enough, not a good dancer, I'm not the best singer I have heard, I'm not the best actor I have seen, immature, unstable, unimportant, flawed, imperfect, have many mistakes, too regretful, I live in my head too much, I get scared easily, I get nervous easily, anxious easily, sad easily, discouraged easily, annoyed easily, addicted to computer game, irresponsible, disorganized, not well in the head, not clear, foggy, feeling small, etc.

Wow that's a lot. I feel insecure from all these things. I want to feel whole. That's all I want. To feel whole, confident, and happy.